Tamara Willems

when all i can do…

(I have written this today especially for my niece who is struggling for wellness.  Also for her Dad, Mum and her sister.  And too..  it is for you,  should you need it. )  

My open letter to you
who are struggling..

blows from behind
shots in the dark
battles from
within

when it happens that
the difficulties of this world
seem insurmountable
a crises of health appears to be
beating you senseless
and I cannot reach you
to be
tagged
in

fearing defeat, feeling you sag
flames begin to flicker
where daunting and dullness
reside

is breaking my heart

I have no miracles to call upon
or words to pull you through
I do my own version of shadow boxing
searching for wisdom
and
valour
the only thing I know
is
love

the only thing I can give you
is this minute
to tell you, again
how very much I love you
to squeeze the hand, I cannot hold
to surround you with love and kindness
is no small feat

to allow you space to fall apart
to allow cracks to show and missing pieces
to crumble
to not fight against feelings of helplessness
and even
anger
but instead to allow you
to lay it down
gently
here

to offer ease
with love
to begin in little, tiny segments of
gratitude
from this moment, for this breath,
for this
break
from fighting
loneliness and pain
to lay it down

to breathe deeply in…     to holding on..
in this    one     moment
this is what we have
right now
to offer ease
with love
to begin with your toes
moving slowly
up
and offer your body
kindness
in increments
of love
and when you have reached the top
to begin
again
just this…

powerless,
I send out whispers on wings
to surround you in love and kindness
every minute of every
day
to hold you
when you need it
and to gather up all of your pieces
the lovely and the frail
and resting them here
for safe keeping
in my heart

until you are ready
to begin
again…

this then,
is all I can think of to do
to release you
from battle
to carry your amour
to shelter you
from the cold
to strengthen you

all I can do
again and again and
again
is
to offer you
kindness..  and love

to surround you

and so
I do ♥

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