Tamara Willems

even then…

“Honor yourself with the humanity you ask everyone else to recognize.” 
~ Dr. Yaba Blay

What if today
we agreed,
to temporarily suspend all
sweetness and
light

to instead spend the day
in quiet contemplation of failing
to
save the world
much less
yourself

from despair

what if too, we thought nothing
of asking everyone else
to just go away
cancel all intended plans
for
a little while
leave one
be

except of course for me and the dogs

what if you saw yourself reflected
again in
the late summer flowers
whose petals have all but curled in on themselves
slightly battered and browned
a shielding of sorts
with no real need to feel
the least bit beautiful or
brave

what if we suspend for a moment
any thoughts of feeling joyous and
congenial
and instead have a grand sort of wallow
in a mild bit of misery

but kept mostly to
yourself
(because, how ridiculous)

what if you blundered through your
walk of gratitude
bristled by someone’s crass language and flip judgement
of another, believing themselves witty and
hip
resisting the futile urge to fire back
in response
because this would make me

what…

what if you took your moment to
grumble about being taken for granted
and swirled this bit of turmoil in your stomach
for a while
tried
piecing together foreign languages
that forget sometimes
to
notice

what if then, you kept the radio on
low
you walked, and walked
watched the passing clouds for signs
of
love
and gave yourself permission
to brood

‘cause even in the event
you find that dragon’s lair
and you drag yourself back into the deepest, darkest
far corner
to
sit

thing is…
with just that little bit of light,

I’d still know where
to find
you ♥

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