(first thing, let me tell you right here
today, I am annoyed
knowing this if you feel inclined to read on
it should be begun
with a suitable
furrowed
scowl)
I ask him, with a deep sigh
Do you ever wonder about your own
usefulness
in the world?
every day, he says, Every… day
the nature of his flip answer, means
that he is not buying in
to my mood
(darn)
the work week left me rather irked
to begin,
and today’s grey skies and cool wind
have done nothing to improve things
certainly not thinking that I garner any governance
over weather conditions
rather that possibly we (the sun and I)
might be sharing the same moody skies
instead of acknowledging what it is
I need
it comes out in frustration, to my husband
as a small rant
about opposite schedules and not enough time together
just as he is about to leave
for work
which of course leaves him absolutely no time
for any kind of
fixer-
upping
and me standing,
in the midst of groceries and laundry
an old blind dog who has become very
needy
a large less patient dog sprawled out
at my feet
and cats wishing to be fed
he perhaps knows, there will be ample time
for me to get over myself
in service
to the needy
instead of a leisurely sit with my book
the washing machine still ails
so, a trip to the laundromat this morning
was necessary
but certainly, there is gratitude
that even that was available as an option
several hours later into my day
I take some time
to sit with the words
that seem to want
noting
(possibly this
is allowing for grace)
yesterday outside the greenhouse
I stop for a minute
to notice
a very small turtle, by the door
deceased, possibly caught up in a freeze
I pick it up, in kindness
not much to it
off the path, I set it back down in a more suitable
gentler bit of green
offer a bit of loving kindness
to the world
let it know
that I was here ♥