Tamara Willems

In how we… do

This morning’s walk of gratitude is a quiet one, 
just me in the garden 
a few birds for company 
and the flowers 
another overcast morning, cloud blanketed sky 
 
today is Mother’s Day 
despite what you may know of me 
I am not (in some aspects) overly sentimental 
in fact, I bristle a bit at saccharine over-produced mush 
perhaps this makes you laugh, 
at the words I sometimes pour 
yet one thing I do believe myself to always be 
is honest,  
and  
sincere 

I am too, always, my own  
introvert kind of loving kindness 
where I will step forward 
but then 
step 
back 
make my offer from here 
where I am 
when  

can 
I don’t do obligation well 

I find myself once again reading a fantastic book 
involving an interesting mother/daughter relationship 
reading with a certain tense-ness of 
understanding 
though this is not my story, or really anything remotely like it 
I do know 
of  
it 
and not to worry, as I have no intentions of
dumping out the contents  
of my bag in front of you now,
suffice it to say  
it’s
complicated 
in many ways…

which,  
if we’re being honest here
isn’t it  
always 
 
so, 
I walk quietly 
lost in thoughts and  
words 
a sometime, lump in my throat 
observing  
birds and flowers, softness and
renewal
so very 
contented in my place in the 
world 
 
and grateful still, to those who have mothered 
in ways they know how 
in ways they can 
 
and always so very, very blessed 
for the four here 
that call me Mom. 
 
Do enjoy your day.  ♥

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