(I started writing this on Wednesday, as a way to sort out the heaviness on my heart,
last night my Uncle John’s life came to its end, and he is now
free from pain, and resting in peace.)
I wonder my friend, if you should tire
of hearing me speak
about losing people we love
all of us
fated to this life
and too, at some point
to come
to its
end
as my dear Uncle John is now
in the final stages
of his long lavishly textured life
and I hold him here in my heart
trying to channel ease for his peace-filled
passing
so much a part of my family, always
as much like a father to me, after the loss of my own
a third set of grandparents to my kids
we became and remained a vital lifeline
to each other
in difficult times
we came too, to count ourselves most fortunate, he and I
as I loved him much
and he loved me too, and we made certain sure
that each one knew it well
so many conversations filled with both laughter, and
tears
since losing my Aunt Pat
we loved and supported each other through loss
and finding again life
after
for a time after my Aunt died,
he took to living the life of riley
although in his late seventies and nearing eighty
acting much like a reckless teenager
but having the time of his life doing it
I never judged him,
in the quiet he’d say to me, what do you think your Aunt Pat would say
we would laugh, and I’d say him (with a grin)
Oh… I don’t think she’d be surprised
last visit he talked much about
when I am gone, when I go
when I am not here
he now firmly in his eighties, and neither one of us under any illusions
of life
everlasting
we spent time on gratitude
this was the last text, he sent me,
“Hey you!!!
I hope you think of me and remember it is reciprocal.
My life is very good or bad depending on the day.
The good ones outweigh the bad. Thank God.
As soon as these uncertain times steady up we will get together
like the old days.
In the mean time you can rest assured that you are in my thoughts
Love you.”
feels today, like the perfect thing
to hold on to.
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Heartbreak today for a loss, but again I ground myself
in love
he sure did bless my life
and please, if I might ask,
offer the world love and kindness
at no time will you find
anyone,
any
one
who doesn’t need it ♥
to my honourary sister Nancy, for everything
as here we find ourselves again
i love you xx