Today I\u2019m thinking about this\u2026
\nWhat is it you are so afraid of??
\nDebt\u2026\u00a0 I am afraid of debt, of the sinking, soaking hopelessness of debt.
\nFor a long time as a one income family, and even now with two incomes and the magnitude of post-secondary educations for our children, debt is simply something that we
\nmanage
\nas best we can
\nCrowds\u2026 I am a little afraid of crowds, the too many people, not enough space, sometimes loud, overwhelming activeness of crowds.\u00a0 Fortunately for me, my husband is well aware of this and so he holds my hand securely and comfortingly
\nas we go, and we
\nmanage
\nas best we can …
\ntogether
\nPublic speaking\u2026 I am absolutely afraid of speaking in public. Common one I know, this for me can also be sometimes an audience as simple as two,
\nyet, without taking a vow of silence, I do
\nmanage
\nas best I can
\nHate\u2026\u00a0 I am afraid of Hate, in its often irrational, and unfounded vitriolic and vile nature.
\nThis is not a word I have in my vocabulary (even hesitate to write the word here), I don\u2019t allow it in my home or In my family,\u00a0 certainly I know it does exist in the world around me in many forms, but I make it my choice always to see the world
\notherwise and yes
\nto manage
\nas best I can
\nand Rats \u2026\u00a0 yes, I am very afraid of rats (in any form!)\u00a0 and I do my best to
\nmanage
\nas \u2018never the twain shall meet\u2019!
\nbut here, let me tell you what I am not afraid of\u2026
\nI am not afraid of life, especially one of my choosing filled with love and kindness, beauty and things that delight.
\nI am not afraid of Love, when it is freely given and lovingly received, and seems to me the most wonderful thing to celebrate, and to give.
\nI am not afraid of friendship, (the good kind) when it is comforting, bolstering, nurturing and kind, whether it has been five minutes or fifty years, when it is genuine\u2026 it counts.
\nI am not afraid of loss, as I know all too well \u2026 it does come to each of us, at some time. It seems to accompany Love, and possibly we wouldn\u2019t know one, without also
\nknowing the other.
\nAnd when I write,
\nI am not afraid of exposing myself\u2026\u00a0 as human.
\nHopefully what you find in my words is that yes, I believe myself to be loving and kind, swayed by beauty and eased by nature
\nyet too, that I can be bowled by the dastardly nature of hormones, irritable, unreasonable, overtly sensitive to
\nlife
\nbut what I am never afraid to be,
\nis
\nreal
\nI write it down,
\nI offer it
\nhere
\nthis is me
\nand I
\nam
\nnot
\nafraid that you might see,
\n(well, maybe just a little…)
\nbut here, \u00a0here is my (not so secret) key
\nit’s Gratitude
\nafraid , unafraid, it is always Gratitude that saves me, fortifies me, anchors me
\ngrounds me, emboldens me
\nand yes, allows me always
\nto manage
\nas best
\nI can \u2665<\/p>\n
So then, let me ask you this,
\ntoday,
\nWhat is it You are so afraid of ??<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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