this morning as I sit with my coffee and book, I watch a family of cardinals who have gathered at my window it seems to place their breakfast orders. \u00a0The skies are greying and soon the window is being pelted by raindrops. \u00a0I reluctantly step outside thinking I’d better rescue my husband’s TV from the bar.
\nI’ve stepped outside in a ratty old T-shirt with a rather large rip down one side and boxer shorts, my pj’s. \u00a0 I am unable to find my footwear of choice, my beloved flip-flops as the dog has absconded with one – so to this ensemble I instead add my husbands running shoes, at least two sizes too big.
\nI paint you this lovely picture just so you know that – yes, I wake up just this beautiful – and also to let you know what a delight I must be to our neighbours!
\nIt’s raining quite hard now, and from the safety of the covered patio, I stop to take in the beauty of my garden in the rain. \u00a0I literally stop, or I am perhaps stopped – in mid-step to breathe this in, to savour this moment. \u00a0 It is quite breath taking.
\nIt has been a tough couple of weeks, losing someone so dear to me. \u00a0Although I am not wallowing or falling apart. \u00a0I’m not feeling the gloom of a rainy day even. \u00a0I am instead just feeling a little uncertain,
\nfeeling a little .. \u00a0 less.
\nStill, \u00a0I stop in this moment to watch the rain fall and find immense beauty and nourishment in it’s caressing. \u00a0A refresh, a renewal of sorts. \u00a0Like everything in my garden is smiling, arms outstretched in gratitude for this gentle showering, and the roof is melodious in it’s pattering.
\nIt is only a few moments and I return to the house and my chair as a loud rumble rolls across the sky and in this too I find comfort. \u00a0I do enjoy thunderstorms in the day time. \u00a0This rumble sounds to me like a breaking up of sorts, a crumbling in the sky of grey clouds perhaps, or possibly even of my heart and the tight grip that has been holding things together.
\nThe blessing this brings me today, \u00a0is in this breaking, –
\nthis feeling of \u00a0opening,
\na rawness,
\na willingness to feel,
\nto be present,
\nto savour,
\nto Love<\/p>\n
and then a squirrel pops his face in the window, a brief little hello as he busies himself with the search for the loveliest crab apples, which appears to be near the very top. \u00a0The sun then decides now is the appropriate time to shine through and draw me out once again, \u00a0to light … \u00a0where a gentle breeze welcomes me back and dances on my skin.<\/p>\n
I nod my head, and smile,
\nOK, I say,
\nbreathe this in … \u00a0…
\nwe’re getting there. \u00a0\u2665<\/p>\n
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