{"id":1582,"date":"2017-09-22T15:47:07","date_gmt":"2017-09-22T19:47:07","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=1582"},"modified":"2017-09-27T23:22:23","modified_gmt":"2017-09-28T03:22:23","slug":"autumnal-thats-a-funny-word","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=1582","title":{"rendered":"Autumnal that’s a funny word…"},"content":{"rendered":"

(I would like to dedicate this post to my friend Diana Beach, \u00a0who I know as I write this, is right here with me …)<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

Autumnal Equinox:\u00a0 The point at which the Sun’s path crosses the celestial equator moving from north to south is called the\u00a0<\/em>autumnal equinox<\/em>. The days on which an\u00a0<\/em>equinox<\/em>\u00a0falls have about equal periods of sunlight and darkness<\/em>.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

So there it is, this is what I am thinking about today,
\ndarkness and light<\/p>\n

This morning as I look out the window
\nI marvel at how the sunlight shines through a gorgeous bit of Virginia creeper
\nturned a pale scarlet colour by the changing season
\nthe light seems to shine right through
\ngorgeous delicate beauty
\nI am no photographer, but I think how wonderful it would be
\nto capture this beautiful
\nlight<\/p>\n

I am feeling sort of wistful I guess, on the fault lines of darkness and light
\nof course still a little saddened by the loss of my beloved turtle
\nas I buried him in the back garden, I said to him
\nI\u2019m sorry James, I am\u2026 \u00a0 \u00a0so, so\u2026 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0sorry
\n(probably to ease my own heart)
\nas well as not nearly enough time with my husband, who is again,
\nworking extra hours and opposite mine
\nnever seems to wear well on me
\nalso, all week I have been watching Ken Burns and Lynn Novick\u2019s documentary series
\nThe Vietnam War
\nnot entirely my usual fare, although I do love documentary
\nnormally I wouldn\u2019t choose to watch war and all the atrocities involved
\nby choice, at any time
\nas I know well just how this will sit in my
\nheart and start to
\nchew
\nbut it is exactly that, the human aspect presented so brilliantly by the great Ken Burns
\nthat draws me in,
\nthere are many things I don\u2019t understand about humans
\nand our reasoning or justifications for violence against
\neach other
\nand it repeatedly breaks my heart for everyone involved here
\nfor all of
\nus
\nI always say to my husband if history was taught by Ken Burns\u2019 documentaries alone,
\nI would have learned so much more<\/p>\n

This morning I think about the mercy of a living gratitude
\nand how I wish to stay always in
\nthe light of this
\nso that I can offer my own little bit of
\nlight
\nto heal the world in some way …
\nkindness
\na virtual hug just where you need it
\nor at least my attempt
\nto brighten
\nmy little corner
\nof it<\/p>\n

I listen to a beautiful meditation by the imminent Br. David Steindl-Rast
\nwhom I truly do love,\u00a0 his beautiful, kind, peaceful spirit
\nthe meditation is on the practice of grateful living
\nthe sound of his voice, and the ethereal weight of his words
\nsoothe me,
\nand bring me to my place of peace<\/p>\n

I can feel
\nthis<\/p>\n

\u201cSo you think this is just another day in your life? It\u2019s not just another day. It is the one day that is given to you\u2026today. It’s a gift. \u00a0It’s the only gift that you have right now, and the only appropriate response… is gratefulness. \u201d ~ Br. David Steindl-Rast<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

maybe the learning
\nis this
\nPermanent Impermanence
\nseasons change, and life changes and
\nit is not perhaps how we
\nso desperately hold on to the light<\/p>\n

but instead our own brilliance is
\nin just how
\nwe
\nlet
\ngo<\/p>\n

so I walk in the sunshine, and I fill up with light
\nsure I recognize the darkness
\nand I feel this too
\nbut I choose grateful living
\nin hopes that this
\nis what I will always have
\nto offer<\/p>\n

that this light is always what spills
\nout
\nof
\nme
\nin
\nbrilliance<\/p>\n

and gratitude<\/p>\n

Today is your gift,
\nbless someone\u2019s day \u2665<\/p>\n

Might I just add an addendum to this post – I am always ‘on the look out for signs of Love’. As yesterday I found a small stone in the shape of a heart at work, and I slipped it into my pocket. Just now, as I am coming back from the library, I spot a larger smooth stone in the shape of heart sat up on a large rock, when I pass by – I don’t pick it, (as I have just received an email from my husband to say that he has made reservations for 2!)\u00a0<\/em><\/span>
\nInstead, i put some Love into this stone, in hopes that it will find it’s way to you! \u00a0<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n