{"id":1838,"date":"2018-01-31T14:10:38","date_gmt":"2018-01-31T19:10:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=1838"},"modified":"2018-01-31T14:16:11","modified_gmt":"2018-01-31T19:16:11","slug":"and-again-to-losses-and-to-gains","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=1838","title":{"rendered":"and again to losses and to gains&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>This morning, first thing I pull on my husband\u2019s coat<br \/>\nand big boots<br \/>\nand I go outside<br \/>\nto feed the birds<\/p>\n<p>the sky is overcast and<br \/>\ndull<br \/>\nbut the air<br \/>\nis<br \/>\nfresh<br \/>\nand though I am barely awake<br \/>\nI breathe deep and smile<br \/>\nin gratitude<\/p>\n<p>here\u2019s what I\u2019ve been doing lately,<br \/>\nI have a friend whose heart is aching<br \/>\nmissing a beautiful light of a sister<br \/>\nwho became a dear friend of my heart<br \/>\ngone just,\u00a0 much too soon<br \/>\nand I wish to hold her hand when she aches<br \/>\nI have friends who are grieving the loss of their mother<br \/>\nand holes that cannot be filled<br \/>\na mother who touched my life with great kindness<br \/>\nand love<br \/>\nand the only way I know to fill these holes<br \/>\nare of giving, much of the same<br \/>\na few days ago my friend at work loses her sister-in-law<br \/>\na peaceful ending to a struggle for wellness<br \/>\nthat still strikes the heart as<br \/>\nsimply too soon<br \/>\non Monday I come in from work to news that my great Uncle Tony has died<br \/>\nmy Gran\u2019s brother<br \/>\nsuch a lovely kind man<br \/>\nwho talked to me of books, and knowledge<br \/>\nand<br \/>\nkindness<br \/>\ncome to the end of his life, leaving behind him<br \/>\na gentle and profound legacy of love<br \/>\nTuesday evening, I come across news that my friend Michael has died<br \/>\nand I search for a time to find answers<br \/>\nyou see Michael and I don\u2019t really know each other, well<br \/>\nwe became friends, I think through our appreciation for PBS<br \/>\nwhen I received a friend request, and a message that said,<br \/>\n\u201cI like your vibe\u201d<br \/>\nthat touched me and made me smile<br \/>\nlater comments from Michael would include<br \/>\n\u201cI don\u2019t know who you are\u2026\u00a0 but you make the world better\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Michael had a wonderful smile,\u00a0 a husband named Stephen<br \/>\ncats and many friends, that he loved and that<br \/>\nloved him<br \/>\nand&#8230;<br \/>\nI wish that<br \/>\nI<br \/>\ncould have hugged him<br \/>\nour friendship was bonded by an offering of Love and Kindness<br \/>\nto the world<br \/>\nand this is where I\u2019ll hold on to Michael Durand<br \/>\nin my heart<\/p>\n<p>so again\u2026<br \/>\nwhat I\u2019m thinking about today .. is love<br \/>\nand<br \/>\nloss<br \/>\nand how each day we can be touched by<br \/>\nboth<br \/>\nand either has the power to gather us in<br \/>\nor bowl us under<br \/>\nand in each moment we can choose<br \/>\nto shrink<br \/>\nor<br \/>\nexpand<\/p>\n<p>and all I have to offer&#8230;\u00a0 is this<br \/>\nas I say most often it seems these days,<br \/>\nhold on to each other<br \/>\noffer someone a kindness<br \/>\na shoulder<br \/>\na connection<br \/>\nin your day to day &#8211;<br \/>\nvalue someone\u2019s worth<br \/>\nas well as<br \/>\nyour own<br \/>\nsay Thank you<br \/>\nand I appreciate you<br \/>\nand<br \/>\nsay I love you<br \/>\nA LOT<br \/>\ntouch hearts<br \/>\ntouch hands<br \/>\ntouch<br \/>\nlives<br \/>\nand be kind<br \/>\nand be kind<br \/>\nand be kind<\/p>\n<p>time passes\u2026<\/p>\n<p>As I am pouring my coffee<br \/>\nI look out the window<br \/>\nto see<br \/>\na new bird at the feeder<br \/>\none I have never seen before<br \/>\nbrilliant and beautiful in colour<br \/>\nI know I will never make it to the camera<br \/>\nand back<br \/>\nbefore he goes,<br \/>\nso I just stand in awe, and in<br \/>\nGratitude<br \/>\nI bring my hands together\u2026 (as I do)<br \/>\nI thank him for coming,<br \/>\nand I name him<br \/>\nMichael.<\/p>\n<p>Peace be with you, my friend<br \/>\nand<br \/>\nThank you<\/p>\n<p>and to you,<br \/>\nMay peace<br \/>\nbe with you too\u00a0 \u2665<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #0000ff;\"><em>\u201cThe things that matter most in our lives are not fantastic or grand. 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