Today I\u2019m thinking about vulnerability and self-exposure
\nI\u2019m thinking about thoughts, feelings and being afraid
\nof things\u2026
\nof many things
\nsome days,\u00a0 of most
\nevery
\nthing
\nalso though, as usual I am thinking too
\nabout
\nbeing
\nbrave
\ncommon themes here, I know<\/p>\n
last weekend I read the book I Am, I Am, I Am: Seventeen Brushes with Death<\/em> I am not very far in, and I certainly have no immediate intentions to open up the whole box of things such a treasure,\u00a0 is this\u00a0 \u2665<\/p>\n always,\u00a0 with gratitude<\/p>\n \u201cVulnerability sounds like truth and feels like courage. Truth and courage aren’t always comfortable, but they’re never weakness.\u201d\u00a0\u00a0 ~ Brene Brown<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Today I\u2019m thinking about vulnerability and self-exposure I\u2019m thinking about thoughts, feelings and being afraid of things\u2026 of many things some days,\u00a0 of most every thing also though, as usual I am thinking too about being brave common themes here,…
\nby Maggie O\u2019Farrell<\/em>
\nwhich was a fantastic, absorbing yet also terrifying read
\nnot in the psychotic thriller sort of way
\nit was a memoir
\nabout in part the fragility I guess,
\nof life
\nvery well written and I would say a really, really good read
\nbut while one review I read said it leaves one \u2018feeling grateful and fully alive\u2019
\nit kind of rattled my bones a little
\nit stays with me (always the sign of a good book)
\nand it has me wondering, why\u2026\u00a0 why do I need a book about inherent dangers
\nthat underline things that scare me ..\u00a0 and obviously for good reason!?!
\nthe outside world,\u00a0 IS scary\u2026\u00a0 I knew it!
\nWhy, why did I read that?
\nso next I turn to Year of Yes by Shonda Rhimes<\/em>,
\nit too has come to me at what seems like the right
\ntime
\nand when I am only in chapter 2, \u00a0I read this \u2013
\n\u201cThat seems like a much better plan than going out in public with every nerve ending in my body screaming.<\/em><\/span><\/strong>
\nThis is who I am.<\/em><\/span><\/strong>
\nSilent.<\/em><\/span><\/strong>
\nQuiet.<\/em><\/span><\/strong>
\nInterior.<\/em><\/span><\/strong>
\nMore comfortable with books than new situations.<\/em><\/span><\/strong>
\nContent to live within my imagination.<\/em><\/span><\/strong>
\nI\u2019ve lived inside my head since I was a kid. \u2026\u00a0 \u201c<\/em><\/span><\/strong>
\nah yes,\u00a0 I think to myself, now this feels like
\nhome
\nI believe I know her<\/p>\n
\nor even aspirations of suddenly saying Yes to everything
\nI am, at this stage of my life very comfortable with
\na simple – no Thank you
\nwith just sometimes
\nthe occasional\u2026\u00a0\u00a0 yes
\nanyway, as mentioned above,\u00a0 what I\u2019m thinking about in all this —\u00a0 \u00a0blather\u00a0 (if you’re still here)
\nwhat I’m thinking about
\nis
\nvulnerability
\nand writers\u00a0 in general
\nwriters of books, and writers of songs
\nand yes writers of \u2026\u00a0\u00a0 blogs,
\nsharers
\nand how very brave it can be to share our \u2018less thans\u2019
\nthings that make us scared, and uncomfortable and
\nreal
\nnot just the shiny things, the perfect things, the accomplishments
\nbut also the dumb things, the not well handled things, \u00a0the un-rationality of things
\nthe failure
\nof
\nthings<\/p>\n
\nand leave it there (here)
\nfor
\ninspection
\nto be criticized, brushed off, picked at,
\npitied
\nscary sometimes, that\u2019s true
\n‘I guess you know, it was You,\u00a0 who left it open’…
\nbut still I think,\u00a0 the realness, the openness, the sharing
\nabsolutely worth it
\nfor just that one time,\u00a0 someone happens along
\nat just the right moment, and finds
\nin this whole mess of things
\nthere own
\nrecognizable
\ntreasure
\nthat one perfectly wonderful piece
\nthat seems to fit just so
\nin their own true
\nheart<\/p>\n
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