{"id":2181,"date":"2018-07-04T18:15:24","date_gmt":"2018-07-04T22:15:24","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=2181"},"modified":"2018-07-04T18:15:24","modified_gmt":"2018-07-04T22:15:24","slug":"watching-the-world-flutter-by","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=2181","title":{"rendered":"watching the world flutter-by…"},"content":{"rendered":"

This morning from my chair, outside in the garden
\nI look up at the sky
\nand it feels as if something is missing,
\nbut I can\u2019t place it
\nwhile of course there is something missing from this view
\na tree was cut down a couple of years ago, a very large tree
\nand it did indeed change the sight line
\none would think I\u2019d have gotten used to that by now
\nwhat I notice as I am looking,\u00a0 wonderingly at the blue
\nthat it is not so much an openness that I am feeling
\nbut rather an exposed sort of something\u2019s-just-not-right-ness
\nof course I know this is me, and not the sky
\nI am, as I like to say, riding the waves trying to
\nstay afloat
\nnot take on water
\nI can tell when small things start to test me
\nand just how easily mounting trifles annoy
\nI tell my husband first thing, not too expect much from me today
\nI am most unagreeable
\nand really only deserve my own company
\na few curt answers and large sighs, and I think he\u2019s got the message
\nthis is in the nature of love
\nwhen I am good enough to warn, and he
\nis kind enough
\nto
\nlisten
\nso,\u00a0 instead of compounding my mood
\nwith mounting irritation
\nI make a choice to ease myself through
\nI take a vow of – well not silence exactly ..\u00a0 but a certain, quietness
\nso I wander a little, then
\nsit
\nif one is moving it is terribly hot,
\nhowever, if one is sitting peacefully still, it is gloriously
\nscorching sunshiny splendour
\nI sit and watch the yellow finches at the feeder
\nand enjoy the steadfast company of the fish
\nI happily note the number of times I have watched a Monarch floating by
\nsitting on the milkweed
\nas well as a couple of darling little white and pale yellowish
\nfrequent flutterbys dancing around me
\nI listen to the cicada sing and think this is the first one I have heard this year
\nI watch the bees come and go from the trumpet vine,\u00a0 legs heavy with pollen
\na wonderful time to be ..\u00a0 a bee
\nI marvel at just how many tadpoles are still in the tadpole stage
\nall heads and swishy tails
\na quiet walk leads to the wonderful discovery of a flowering cornflower
\ndelightful, as I have tried many times to import them from
\nrougher terrain
\nand finally, just one has appeared
\nin beautiful cornflower blue (imagine!)
\na familiar call, from the branches behind and I watch as the chick-a-dee family
\nland in the dogwood
\nand then sneak in for a splash in the pool
\nwhile I attempt to capture a few snaps, the fish try hard to get my attention
\nby making the loudest kissing noises,\u00a0 cheeky!
\nsuddenly I can feel myself
\nsmiling
\nwide<\/p>\n

I look up again at the sky,\u00a0 it is the brightest blue
\nand the sun warm and inviting
\nshines through in fiery comfort
\nadding spice to skin
\nI close my eyes
\nI am ease\u2026<\/p>\n

from the speaker I can hear
\nthe lovely Allison Krauss and James Taylor singing,<\/p>\n

\u266a How\u2019s the World Treating You \u266a<\/em><\/p>\n

when I open my eyes, and look down at the dapples of sunlight shining through
\nthe wisteria vine
\nI spot in the shadows, a heart
\nonce again I am reminded
\neven on the tougher days..
\nI am love<\/p>\n

and for this,\u00a0 always, always
\nI am
\ngratitude \u2665<\/p>\n

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