{"id":2749,"date":"2019-02-27T15:28:49","date_gmt":"2019-02-27T20:28:49","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=2749"},"modified":"2019-02-27T17:13:18","modified_gmt":"2019-02-27T22:13:18","slug":"when-all-i-can-do","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=2749","title":{"rendered":"when all i can do…"},"content":{"rendered":"

(I have written this today especially for my niece who is struggling for wellness.\u00a0 Also for her Dad, Mum and her sister.\u00a0 And too<\/em>..\u00a0 it is for you,\u00a0 should you need it. )\u00a0\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

My open letter to you
\nwho are struggling..<\/p>\n

blows from behind
\nshots in the dark
\nbattles from
\nwithin<\/p>\n

when it happens that
\nthe difficulties of this world
\nseem insurmountable
\na crises of health appears to be
\nbeating you senseless
\nand I cannot reach you
\nto be
\ntagged
\nin<\/p>\n

fearing defeat, feeling you sag
\nflames begin to flicker
\nwhere daunting and dullness
\nreside<\/p>\n

is breaking my heart<\/p>\n

I have no miracles to call upon
\nor words to pull you through
\nI do my own version of shadow boxing
\nsearching for wisdom
\nand
\nvalour
\nthe only thing I know
\nis
\nlove<\/p>\n

the only thing I can give you
\nis this minute
\nto tell you, again
\nhow very much I love you
\nto squeeze the hand, I cannot hold
\nto surround you with love and kindness
\nis no small feat<\/p>\n

to allow you space to fall apart
\nto allow cracks to show and missing pieces
\nto crumble
\nto not fight against feelings of helplessness
\nand even
\nanger
\nbut instead to allow you
\nto lay it down
\ngently
\nhere<\/p>\n

to offer ease
\nwith love
\nto begin in little, tiny segments of
\ngratitude
\nfrom this moment, for this breath,
\nfor this
\nbreak
\nfrom fighting
\nloneliness and pain
\nto lay it down<\/p>\n

to breathe deeply in…\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0to holding on..
\nin this\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0one \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0moment
\nthis is what we have
\nright now
\nto offer ease
\nwith love
\nto begin with your toes
\nmoving slowly
\nup
\nand offer your body
\nkindness
\nin increments
\nof love
\nand when you have reached the top
\nto begin
\nagain
\njust this…<\/p>\n

powerless,
\nI send out whispers on wings
\nto surround you in love and kindness
\nevery minute of every
\nday
\nto hold you
\nwhen you need it
\nand to gather up all of your pieces
\nthe lovely and the frail
\nand resting\u00a0them here
\nfor safe keeping
\nin my heart<\/p>\n

until you are ready
\nto begin
\nagain\u2026<\/p>\n

this then,
\nis all I can think of to do
\nto release you
\nfrom battle
\nto carry your amour
\nto shelter you
\nfrom the cold
\nto strengthen you<\/p>\n

all I can do
\nagain and again and
\nagain
\nis
\nto offer you
\nkindness..\u00a0 and love<\/p>\n

to surround you<\/p>\n

and so
\nI do \u2665<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

(I have written this today especially for my niece who is struggling for wellness.\u00a0 Also for her Dad, Mum and her sister.\u00a0 And too..\u00a0 it is for you,\u00a0 should you need it. )\u00a0\u00a0 My open letter to you who are…
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