{"id":3021,"date":"2019-07-07T14:27:28","date_gmt":"2019-07-07T18:27:28","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=3021"},"modified":"2019-07-07T14:27:29","modified_gmt":"2019-07-07T18:27:29","slug":"further-studies-of-the-flower","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=3021","title":{"rendered":"further studies of the flower…"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

I haven\u2019t had enough time to write,
and today I can feel it
in my teeth
not even sure I have the time today
but
I\u2019m doing it anyway
what I\u2019m supposed to be doing
is writing a letter
pen to paper sort of thing
(how very fast a keyboard makes us lazy)
and\u2026\u00a0 I haven\u2019t got that done
either
yesterday I made my start
salutations and such
then was delightfully interrupted
by
a
baby
(which will undoubtedly capture my undying attention
every time)
the cutest little fellow, I was more than happy
to
entertain
I do find though, when words are wandering
it puts me off getting much else
done
until I have sufficiently attended to
their
composure..\u00a0 com..posing?
and to this letter writing business,
I begin by apologizing for not keeping in touch better<\/del> <\/em>
then quite quickly
scratch this out
I have made it my practice, to
not apologize for my
being
as somewhat private and under-stated
is who I am
I don\u2019t always keep in touch well
I can\u2019t always be
reaching
except perhaps in more delicate
ways
and I don\u2019t waste time wishing to be
different
than I am
as this can quite easily feel like a rather
ridiculous version of
self-abuse
instead,
I regularly acknowledge how very fortunate
I feel to have friends I adore,
and kindred souls who
understand the likes of me
whose hearts meet with mine
and gratefully so
I think too of the assumptions we make
the stories we tell
times we don\u2019t understand
I think of the lengths one will go to
to seemingly
fit in
often giving away small doses of
sanity
I no longer much do the \u2018shoulds\u2019
or the \u2018supposed to\u2019s\u2019
I am never quite sure where this puts me
in your eyes
but it certainly adds to the
softness
I hope you will find (should you need it)
in
mine<\/p>\n\n\n\n

yet one more lesson
from the garden
I guess,
the cultivated flower, the wild flower
the weed
the bold, the brazen, the delicate
beauty
the carefully planted, the self-sown in
the survivors
the pleasant and prickly
the sun seeking and the shady
preside here
in
peace<\/p>\n\n\n\n

all are welcome to
shine
and each<\/p>\n\n\n\n

in their own good
time <\/p>\n\n\n\n

that’s how I like them.. <\/em> \u2665<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I haven\u2019t had enough time to write,and today I can feel itin my teethnot even sure I have the time todaybutI\u2019m doing it anywaywhat I\u2019m supposed to be doingis writing a letterpen to paper sort of thing(how very fast a…
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