{"id":3137,"date":"2019-10-09T15:05:12","date_gmt":"2019-10-09T19:05:12","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=3137"},"modified":"2019-10-09T15:36:59","modified_gmt":"2019-10-09T19:36:59","slug":"to-a-softer-kind-of-light","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=3137","title":{"rendered":"to a softer kind of light&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>In my garden and in my pictures <br>I am appreciating the light of October,<br>in part I suppose because I can feel myself caught somewhere<br>in the aimless wander <br>of fall<br>what is it I have got to say these days..  and who really cares, <br>anyway&#8230;<br>when the summer sun and warm temps are<br>quickly slipping away and a more dulling aching sort of chill<br>sets in<br>I\u2019ve not been sleeping so well of late<br>and that certainly adds to my <br>irritability<br>I am, I can say, sometimes a bit of a good-natured<br>grump<br>when I can easily recognize &#8211; it is indeed &#8211; Me at the cause,<br>and therefore am most often able to poke a little fun<br>at myself<br>(instead of beating myself up)<br>I am also currently having stress dreams regarding people in my house<br>many, many people<br>and really\u2026<br>I just need to use the bathroom.<br>I know why this is..&nbsp; and I know all will be well, when we get there<br>so  like the touch of October light<br>I am trying to..&nbsp; let things <br>fall<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>a small blip on a series of necessary health checks<br>served to trip one up a bit<br>even though things came out just fine, <br>the &#8216;it&#8217;s no big deal&#8217; still serves to stick a pin<br>in the bulletin board.. of life<br>where a loved one believes you when you say it<br>instead of showering you with the attention you <br>might <br>need<br>(silently, maybe we both were a little scared)<br>where then, the receiving of love and kindness from a friend<br>touches well any places left lying<br>open to <br>exposure<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I cannot speak enough\nabout the absolute necessity of kindness<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I read about the Little Rock Nine, and regal my family with astounding tales of the absolute unfathomable courage and strength it would take for one family,<br>for one individual to take a stand<br>to right a wrong<br>to act in a non-violent manner<br>for something as simple as<br>education, <br>as human kindness and<br>decency<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I marvel at my kids who spend an entire evening working hard to capture <br>a mouse<br>that the cats have brought up to play with<br>the kids indeed do manage to catch it <br>unharmed<br> and take it far enough away from the house (we hope)<br> for release<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>kindness in action, makes one\u2019s heart smile<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>sometimes it seems we work so hard to <br>better than<br>one up<br>out do<br>what if we spent more time looking to appreciate<br>the small kindnesses of life<br>the kind people, the kind acts<br>the kind <br>light<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>there are certainly ways to stand for what one believes in<br>in kinder ways<br>in kinder gestures<br>in kinder<br>words<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>maybe it is enough to spend my days not so much in aim-less <br>wander<br>but more in aim-full<br>kindness<br>and recognizing in great gratitude<br>when such things<br>appear<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>because this I know,<br>this is the light<br>I am <br>looking for <br> <br>this<br>that calls us gently<br>that draws attention<br>quietly<br>and sincerely<br>while steadily reflecting love<br>is the light<br>of <br>kindness<br> <br>and trust me,<br>the warmth one feels<br>when it shines <br>on <br>you <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>can be <br>pretty astounding \u2665<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>In my garden and in my pictures I am appreciating the light of October,in part I suppose because I can feel myself caught somewherein the aimless wander of fallwhat is it I have got to say these days.. and who&hellip; 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