What if you never do anything of any importance in the world?
What if you never did anything
good?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
who\u2019s the judge and what\nare the rules?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I have this thing for voicing things I don\u2019t
understand
I don\u2019t understand the logic in this, the thought process, the end goal
the un-bothered cruelty
the
unthinking-ness
the subtly unkind
the unnecessary spite\u2026
I try to be open to understanding, to separate ego
not to be
easily bruised
but the tightness in my jaw, gives me away<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I think often of things we allow
and should
not
of things we endure and bear witness
to
of things we spend our time on
or often run away from<\/p>\n\n\n\n
yesterday I come home feeling rather beaten, in spirit
(as I have been for many weeks now)
I\u2019ve been annoyed and angered, frustrated and bothered
I feel as if a kind and peaceful self has been stomping around
in rather large and angry
boots
that really,\u00a0 are just not my size<\/p>\n\n\n\n
and today, I am wanting
still
the softening of a day, the gentleness of love
I am sitting with a book, while the sunshine caresses the skin on the back of my hand
(as it is,
\u00a0covered in small cuts and scars)
I am exhaling large sighs that feel like
a sinking
I am trying to unfurl, while leaving aside the swirl
of conversations in my head
that seem to want,
a going over
decisions to be made…
my chair becomes an island, where I can sit and listen to
the calm, cool, comforting lap of water
while gazing up at the beauty
and vastness
of a bluer than blue sky
that shines<\/p>\n\n\n\n
yesterday Carrie Anne Moss brings me, \u201cI am no longer willing to sacrifice my peace..\u201d<\/em> because this is what I want to bring whether that proves to mean anything on a what I do know, so today,\u00a0 I am resting \u2665<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" What if you never do anything of any importance in the world?What if you never did anythinggood? who\u2019s the judge and what are the rules? I have this thing for voicing things I don\u2019tunderstandI don\u2019t understand the logic in this,…
and today I try to breathe this in
s-l-o-w…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
to this world
a kind loving heart and a
peaceful spirit and mind<\/p>\n\n\n\n
larger scale
isn\u2019t for me to know<\/p>\n\n\n\n
is this is me
and this
is all I have\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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