{"id":337,"date":"2015-11-14T17:46:58","date_gmt":"2015-11-14T22:46:58","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=337"},"modified":"2016-07-29T20:53:41","modified_gmt":"2016-07-30T00:53:41","slug":"337","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=337","title":{"rendered":"when it hurts too much"},"content":{"rendered":"

it is so hard for me to understand
\n<\/span><\/span>unkindness
\n<\/span><\/span>harsh words
\n<\/span><\/span>and intentioned
\n<\/span><\/span>meanness
\n<\/span><\/span>when unspeakable acts
\n<\/span><\/span>consume our airways
\n<\/span><\/span>how can we not react
\n<\/span><\/span>with compassioned
\n<\/span><\/span>open hearts
\n<\/span><\/span>and Love
\n<\/span><\/span>why do we instead resort to
\n<\/span><\/span>violence
\n<\/span><\/span>vitriol and
\n<\/span><\/span>ignorance
\n<\/span><\/span>how do we hold ourselves as
\n<\/span><\/span>better than’s
\n<\/span><\/span>if our actions
\n<\/span><\/span>speak otherwise
\n<\/span><\/span>we simply \u00a0will not conquer Hate
\n<\/span><\/span>with Hate
\n<\/span><\/span>if we only travel in dark places
\n<\/span><\/span>how can we
\n<\/span><\/span>expect to see
\n<\/span><\/span>Light<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

the \u00a0 They, \u00a0 Those, \u00a0 Them
\n<\/span><\/span>this harshness starts to permeate
\n<\/span><\/span>my heart
\n<\/span><\/span>pecking away pieces of me
\n<\/span><\/span>leaving
\n<\/span><\/span>scars on the world
\n<\/span><\/span>when then, \u00a0are we not
\n<\/span><\/span>We and Us<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

I must retreat to kinder waters
\n<\/span><\/span>pull into safe harbours
\n<\/span><\/span>but not to hide away
\n<\/span><\/span>just to spare myself
\n<\/span><\/span>the salty seas
\n<\/span><\/span>that takes the moisture from my skin
\n<\/span><\/span>and stings my eyes
\n<\/span><\/span>threatens to wring my heart dry<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

I just don’t understand
\n<\/span><\/span>unkindness
\n<\/span><\/span>in any form
\n<\/span>and this hurts me so
\n<\/span><\/span>my heart is soft
\n<\/span><\/span>true
\n<\/span>I guess I am too<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

I hope to always be this way
\n<\/span>to stay soft
\n<\/span><\/span>to stay kind
\n<\/span><\/span>to not let the harshness of the world
\n<\/span><\/span>poke holes in me
\n<\/span><\/span>to keep my heart open
\n<\/span>and full
\n<\/span><\/span>of Love
\n<\/span><\/span>and Compassion
\n<\/span><\/span>and Kindness
\n<\/span><\/span>and at times like these
\n<\/span><\/span>to offer this
\n<\/span><\/span>to you\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

I don’t understand
\n<\/span><\/span>unkindness …<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

and I hope
\n<\/span><\/span>I never do.<\/span><\/span> \u00a0\u2665<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cI still believe in man in spite of man. I believe in language even though it has been wounded, deformed, and perverted by the enemies of mankind. And I continue to cling to words because it is up to us to transform them into instruments of comprehension rather than contempt.<\/span><\/em>
It is up to us to choose whether we wish to use them to curse or to heal, to wound or to console.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/em>
~ Elie Wiesel \u00a0<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

it is so hard for me to understand unkindness harsh words and intentioned meanness when unspeakable acts consume our airways how can we not react with compassioned open hearts and Love why do we instead resort to violence vitriol and…
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