{"id":3481,"date":"2020-05-01T15:21:45","date_gmt":"2020-05-01T19:21:45","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=3481"},"modified":"2020-05-01T15:21:46","modified_gmt":"2020-05-01T19:21:46","slug":"raindrops-on-tulips","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=3481","title":{"rendered":"raindrops on tulips&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>This morning again<br>finding oneself here<br>reminding yourself to breathe<br>fully and deeply<br>voluntarily carrying the weight of loss<br>a friend whose heart has been inextricably torn<br>away by the loss of his beloved<br>and what can one possibly say to reduce some small bit of<br>the emptiness that sits upon ones <br>chest<br>at such a time as this<br>I am holding you my friend, in my heart<br>and will continue to do so <br>as this is all I know <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>it is never something we can explain<br>losing<br>the hows, the whys, the when<br>even if it comes with age<br>there is no way to fully prepare ourselves<br>with insight or expectability<br>except in knowing <br>that it does come indeed to all of us<br>at some <br>time<br>whether we ourselves are going<br>or we find ourselves<br>the <br>left<br>behind<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>we preoccupy ourselves with petty discomforts<br>when we know nothing of this pain<br>waste precious time on ridiculous things<br>the humanness of avoidance<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>when all we have is the time we have<br>to love<br>the right now in this moment<br>to know love, to show love<br>to give love<br>to those we love<br>as this is what carries us through<br>this is our <br>saving<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I don\u2019t claim to know so much about how to deal<br>or how to comfort at such a time as this<br>except I suppose, to spill it all out <br>in words,<br><br>what I do know is, to have given love<br>and to have been so loved,<br>as you my friend<br>this IS what remains, always<br>comfortably and peacefully <br>in its place<br> <br>and  <br>this then,<br>is what helps us to once again<br>face <br>the morning<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>when it comes \u2665<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>This morning againfinding oneself herereminding yourself to breathefully and deeplyvoluntarily carrying the weight of lossa friend whose heart has been inextricably tornaway by the loss of his belovedand what can one possibly say to reduce some small bit ofthe emptiness&hellip; <br \/><a class=\"read-more-button\" href=\"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=3481\">Read more<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":3483,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[463,303,464,375,465,466],"class_list":["post-3481","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-andlove","tag-belove","tag-holdingyou","tag-loveandloss","tag-remembertobreathe","tag-thisisallwehave"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3481","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3481"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3481\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3485,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3481\/revisions\/3485"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/3483"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3481"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3481"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3481"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}