I kept myself half-awake
most of the night
words running through my head
of something I wanted to write
of course I think what you\u2019re supposed to do
when this happens, is
get up
and write it down, which I didn\u2019t do
instead I just kept repeating a sequence
of words
as to
not
forget<\/p>\n\n\n\n
something to do with
my highest regard and utmost respect
for people who put
good things
in the world<\/p>\n\n\n\n
good things like art and music
like photography and pictures
like poems and books
but also like
simple words and beautiful
sentences
things with wit that delight and
tickle
kind things and things like
love<\/p>\n\n\n\n
something like… I don’t know how it is, you do
but I do so very much like
the things
you
do<\/p>\n\n\n\n
might possibly have stemmed from
listening last night to my second (or more likely tied for first)
favourite song
Clay Pigeons by Blaze Foley
the words of which and the simple genuineness of Blaze\u2019s voice
acoustically carried without the need of
extra bells and whistles
come so very close to inducing tears, every time
(not just when I am quite tired from a hot day\u2019s work)
to write a song, in such simplified terms
in the most gorgeous arrangement of words
and meaning<\/p>\n\n\n\n
that remind me of people I have known
(mostly my Dad and my brother)
coupled with knowledge of Blaze\u2019s story
succeed in breaking my heart
open
each time
with such caring for the struggles of
being<\/p>\n\n\n\n
art
that touches<\/p>\n\n\n\n
also possibly comes again from the weight
of weariness
from taking on too much, from carrying
heavy things<\/p>\n\n\n\n
from wondering why it is we cannot simply
provide clean drinking water
to Indigenous communities, or fund
schools or medical care
in the same way
to recognizing the basic facts of racial injustices
over centuries, that we still
have not come
to
right<\/p>\n\n\n\n
or maybe I just don\u2019t want to know of your
stance against equality and justice
from your glossy place of
privilege
which negates any need
to
think of others who don\u2019t look
like you
possibly anymore than you care to hear
once again
of my caring for human decency
and
simple kindness<\/p>\n\n\n\n
how to keep one\u2019s heart open
in a areas
under construction (destruction, obstruction)
try to put something good in the world
try to leave something here
that someone will see
and know
that you cared for beauty
that you cared about the words that were used
about the hearts without hope
about people that
tried<\/p>\n\n\n\n
about smiles
about hugs
about things that you saw
about things that you felt
about nature, and nurture
and things that you
loved<\/p>\n\n\n\n
so that someone will know
you were here
caring
in your own small way
nudging the world just a little
at least, in the
direction <\/p>\n\n\n\n
of a sunrise \u2665 <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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