{"id":3848,"date":"2021-02-10T12:28:49","date_gmt":"2021-02-10T17:28:49","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=3848"},"modified":"2021-02-10T12:28:50","modified_gmt":"2021-02-10T17:28:50","slug":"a-freezing-of-days","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=3848","title":{"rendered":"a freezing of days&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Again as we turn to grieving&nbsp;&nbsp;<br>in the stories of&nbsp;&nbsp;<br>us&nbsp;<br>of which, I know little of how&nbsp;<br>to&nbsp;&nbsp;<br>counsel&nbsp;<br>except to say it is good, for a time&nbsp;<br>to&nbsp;sit quietly with this&nbsp;<br>in our own stunned silence and devastation&nbsp;&nbsp;<br>good also, to&nbsp;<br>laugh&nbsp;<br>to cry, to say and to feel stories&nbsp;<br>large and small&nbsp;&nbsp;<br>of those we love, of those&nbsp;<br>we shall not ever really&nbsp;<br>lose&nbsp;<br>of those that take their own little pieces of us&nbsp;<br>when they go&nbsp;<br>yet in exchange it seems,&nbsp;<br>for the bits that we so desperately&nbsp;<br>hold on to&nbsp;<br>the small wedges we feverishly hammer into place&nbsp;<br>in our own hearts, to fill the void&nbsp;<br>left gaping open&nbsp;<br>as to not let in&#8230;&nbsp; the cold&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>indeed, these small fragments feel\u00a0<br>inadequate\u00a0<br>as to what it\u00a0is,\u00a0we wish to hold\u00a0<br>but this is love\u00a0<br>\u00a0<br>this is the love that surrounds us\u00a0<br>when we are in need\u00a0<br>that allows us to open our eyes on the morning sun\u00a0<br>forgetting for the briefest moment\u00a0<br>that we are doomed to another crush of\u00a0<br>days<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>this too is love when someone reaches us <br>in tenderness, in awkwardness\u00a0<br>or in\u00a0\u00a0<br>grace\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>this is how we know we will perhaps&nbsp;&nbsp;<br>make it to the evening\u2019s&nbsp;&nbsp;<br>stars&nbsp;&nbsp;<br>in the darkest sky&nbsp;<br>where again we may cry out in questions&nbsp;<br>of how and why&nbsp;<br>and when&nbsp;<br>might this hollowing out of one\u2019s heart&nbsp;<br>ever end&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>this is love that allows us to breathe&nbsp;&nbsp;<br>deeply or&nbsp;<br>desperately or somehow unconsciously&nbsp;<br>through days of&nbsp;<br>living&nbsp;<br>without&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>this is the love that holds\u00a0<br>that hurts, and too\u00a0<br>that\u00a0\u00a0<br>heals\u00a0<br>\u00a0<br>this is love\u00a0<br>\u00a0<br>of its blessing or its\u00a0<br>curse\u00a0<br>it has in its gentle power\u00a0<br>just what we\u00a0\u00a0<br>need\u00a0<br>to see us through\u00a0<br>\u00a0<br>and in this kind of love\u00a0<br>to fail, to fall\u00a0<br>to quietly or unknowingly\u00a0wander through\u00a0<br>this again,\u00a0\u00a0<br>is where I\u2019ll meet you\u00a0<br>\u00a0<br>with a warm glass of comfort <br>and arms\u00a0\u00a0<br>large enough to hold  <br>all <br>of you \u2665 <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Again as we turn to grieving&nbsp;&nbsp;in the stories of&nbsp;&nbsp;us&nbsp;of which, I know little of how&nbsp;to&nbsp;&nbsp;counsel&nbsp;except to say it is good, for a time&nbsp;to&nbsp;sit quietly with this&nbsp;in our own stunned silence and devastation&nbsp;&nbsp;good also, to&nbsp;laugh&nbsp;to cry, to say and to feel&hellip; 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