Boxes had been piling up for weeks\u00a0or\u00a0\u00a0
months really\u00a0
and by about ten o\u2019clock this morning\u00a0
they were\u00a0\u00a0
all\u00a0\u00a0
gone\u00a0
my son moves out today\u00a0\u00a0
or\u00a0\u00a0
has done, I guess\u00a0
moving in with his longtime girlfriend\u00a0
finally, after a bit of pandemic interruption\u00a0
starting \u2018grown-up\u2019 life\u00a0
together\u00a0
which is wonderful and she is\u00a0\u00a0
wonderful\u00a0
and in most ways, I couldn\u2019t be happier for them\u00a0
I certainly know well the feelings of being young, in love\u00a0
and wanting more from\u00a0life, than saying goodnight each night\u00a0
returning separately to your parents’ house\u00a0
but still\u00a0
my goodness, today feels… a little empty here\u00a0
as I kind of knew it would\u00a0
and really, I don\u2019t need you to tell me this is the way it should be\u00a0
your kids move out, I get that\u00a0
still, doesn\u2019t take away how much I like having them here
this morning we talk briefly and lightly\u00a0
about Christmas\u00a0
and I realize it won\u2019t be the same\u00a0
no more the six of us sleepily gathered in a small space\u00a0
going through our Christmas morning routine\u00a0
as we have always done\u00a0
I guess this year will just be, a little bit\u00a0\u00a0
different\u00a0
are we as parents destined to forever wonder if we have given\u00a0
enough\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
this past week felt long, anxiety was high and I was\u00a0
troubled about things
the where\u2019s, the why\u2019s and how comes\u00a0
weighed heavily and I felt weak and
tired,
I walked myself through in a kind of foggish-ness\u00a0
and fret\u00a0
(seems like a ridiculous way to spend your days)\u00a0
you know I will also tell myself this\u00a0
and try not to write about the questions I\u2019ve been\u00a0
churning\u00a0
lest you think that I\u2019d walked through the streets naked\u00a0
baring all but post-it notes and\u00a0
pins\u00a0
having inadvertently locked the kinder more sensible parts of myself\u00a0
out in the cold <\/p>\n\n\n\n
instead, today what I choose to do is
take a deep breath\u00a0
and a long hot shower\u00a0
pour myself a large glass of lemon water\u00a0\u00a0
walk through the empty spaces\u00a0
breathe\u00a0
practice gratitude and kinder thoughts for\u00a0\u00a0
tender hearts\u00a0
\u00a0
and when the cat suddenly throws up all over the floor\u00a0
I find this is exactly
the right time
to let the tears fall \u2665<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Boxes had been piling up for weeks\u00a0or\u00a0\u00a0months really\u00a0and by about ten o\u2019clock this morning\u00a0they were\u00a0\u00a0all\u00a0\u00a0gone\u00a0my son moves out today\u00a0\u00a0or\u00a0\u00a0has done, I guess\u00a0moving in with his longtime girlfriend\u00a0finally, after a bit of pandemic interruption\u00a0starting \u2018grown-up\u2019 life\u00a0together\u00a0which is wonderful and she is\u00a0\u00a0wonderful\u00a0and…
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