{"id":4333,"date":"2022-06-03T11:02:40","date_gmt":"2022-06-03T15:02:40","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=4333"},"modified":"2022-06-05T11:35:46","modified_gmt":"2022-06-05T15:35:46","slug":"clouds-in-my-coffee","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=4333","title":{"rendered":"clouds in my coffee&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>This morning feels,  daunting &#8230; ? uncertain&#8230; ? worrisome&#8230; ? tentative&#8230; ?<br>twenty-four brand new hours, and all that,<br>in the province where I live, politics may be<br>the word of the day<br>yet comes with the unusual (for me) feeling of<br>who cares<br>it\u2019s all bullshit, empty promises and petty personal power pumping<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>where there are hearts, people and tenderness much more important<br>to my<br>caring<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>a young life in abject peril<br>a family in ineffable pain<br>and just how I can be manifesting life preservers of<br>love<br>that matter<br><br>also, acutely aware of how very much I find myself missing my Aunt Pat<br>and Uncle John<br>sitting I guess, with the gift<br>of just how important we became to each other<br>life lines<br>extended<br>mutual sounding boards of love&#8217;s assurances<br>I miss that<br>a lot<br><br>thinking also this morning, watching my son making his breakfast<br>how disappointing<br>there are no longer surprises in cereal boxes<br>the delight in something unexpected and joyful<br>dropping into a sometimes sleepily mundane start<br>to one\u2019s day<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>this is me mulling\u2026&nbsp; noticing\u2026. &nbsp;thinking,<br>mindful<br>in my own way<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>this is me having no simple answers to &#8211; what are we doing<br>to &#8211;<br>how to make things better<br>or right<br>easier or kind<br><br>this is me just choosing once again to<br>ground myself in love<br>to opening<br>myself to the gifts that come, often times in<br>ever so small and seemingly subtle, unassuming packages<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>to trusting always the questions<br><br>and to knowing<br>how very precious and vital<br>we all are<br>to each other \u2665<br><br><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>&nbsp;<br><em>to surrounding you in love<\/em><br><em>and in kindness<\/em><br><br><em>This <br>is how we begin<\/em> \ud83d\ude4f<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>This morning feels, daunting &#8230; ? uncertain&#8230; ? worrisome&#8230; ? tentative&#8230; ?twenty-four brand new hours, and all that,in the province where I live, politics may bethe word of the dayyet comes with the unusual (for me) feeling ofwho caresit\u2019s all&hellip; <br \/><a class=\"read-more-button\" href=\"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=4333\">Read more<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":4334,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[829,508,279,74],"class_list":["post-4333","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-cloudsinmycoffee","tag-stayopen","tag-tobegin","tag-toyouthisday"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4333","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4333"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4333\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4339,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4333\/revisions\/4339"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/4334"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4333"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4333"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4333"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}