{"id":445,"date":"2016-02-10T16:30:50","date_gmt":"2016-02-10T21:30:50","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=445"},"modified":"2016-02-10T16:30:50","modified_gmt":"2016-02-10T21:30:50","slug":"the-heaviness-of-snow","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=445","title":{"rendered":"the heaviness of snow"},"content":{"rendered":"<div id=\"yiv9582457520yui_3_16_0_1_1455118661518_6959\" class=\"\">\n<p id=\"yui_3_16_0_1_1455133423264_4753\" dir=\"ltr\"><span id=\"yui_3_16_0_1_1455133423264_4752\" class=\"\">I am reading a book right now that with every page is absolutely breaking my heart<br \/>\n<\/span>but still I read<br \/>\nit comes very highly recommended<br \/>\nand the language and characters are so beautiful,<br \/>\nI find it hard to let them go.<br \/>\nSo I sit, and I gasp, and I cringe and tears come to my eyes,<br \/>\nas the unkindness of humans<br \/>\npierces my heart and attempts<br \/>\nto pull me under.<br \/>\nI feel weak, vulnerable<br \/>\nand scared<br \/>\nbut still I read<br \/>\nmy heart feels soggy<br \/>\nand I feel<br \/>\nsmudgy<br \/>\nand small<br \/>\ntide waters are rising<br \/>\nand I can feel them<br \/>\nsurging<br \/>\njust about eye level<br \/>\nI find myself<br \/>\nholding my breath<br \/>\nclenching my teeth<br \/>\ntense<br \/>\nI am struggling a bit<br \/>\nbut I know these feelings<br \/>\nthey are a part of me<br \/>\nand I try always<br \/>\nto recognize them when they come<br \/>\nI hold back tears when I can<br \/>\nand let them fall<br \/>\nwhen I need to<br \/>\nthey remain, ever close<br \/>\nI step outside with my camera<br \/>\nto get a picture of a branch<br \/>\nhanging low<br \/>\nweighted heavy with fresh snow<br \/>\nseemingly capturing<br \/>\nmy feelings<br \/>\njust above I hear a tiny little peep<br \/>\nI turn instead to<br \/>\nfind you<br \/>\nmy little chick-a-dee<br \/>\nand<br \/>\nthat little peep<br \/>\nreminding me<br \/>\nthat my heart still beats<br \/>\nstrong<br \/>\nthat the heaviness of snow<br \/>\ncan still be beautiful<br \/>\nand hope<br \/>\nreturns \u00a0\u2665<\/p>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I am reading a book right now that with every page is absolutely breaking my heart but still I read it comes very highly recommended and the language and characters are so beautiful, I find it hard to let them&hellip; <br \/><a class=\"read-more-button\" href=\"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=445\">Read more<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":446,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-445","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/445","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=445"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/445\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":447,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/445\/revisions\/447"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/446"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=445"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=445"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=445"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}