Last week begins,
anxiety high
and I can feel it on the inside
if I am still
it pulls
and it churns like one of those
bingo things that tumbles the balls
with numbers on them
it is worry for things
unknown
for my kids, and for things
I
haven\u2019t done
for things I am
not
irrational sort of worry, not of my
control
makes ones jaw
tight
and body tense<\/p>\n\n\n\n
most times if I stop myself mid-
agitation
I feel ready to break
wondering why, I have to go through this
again\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
but you see, just as easily I can remind myself
I know this wave, or rather this
ebb
I know it almost too well
and so, I invite it in, put my arm
around its shoulders
give it just a little squeeze
your going to be ok, I say, I got you
we know how to do this
so I welcome every kindness received
from the lovely people
I get to work with
and a few close friends
I soak up every bit of love from the dogs
because they\u2019re kind of
in-tuned
to this
stuff
you know,
I notice how beautiful the sky has been
both morning, and night
and try not to miss one heavenly shade
look for Venus or whichever bright beautiful planet has been
shining
on
me, of late
I float for a time
on large puffs of
cloud <\/p>\n\n\n\n
and notice grace
in the garden<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I run my fingers over words that Last week begins,anxiety highand I can feel it on the insideif I am stillit pullsand it churns like one of thosebingo things that tumbles the ballswith numbers on themit is worry for thingsunknownfor my kids, and for thingsIhaven\u2019t donefor things…
feel soft
to the touch
then try to keep them
on my skin
and ever so gladly
I wrap myself up in the I love you
that waits for me
at the end
of
my
day \u2665
And you my friend,<\/em> I hope you are well<\/em> <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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