{"id":4946,"date":"2024-08-10T14:28:36","date_gmt":"2024-08-10T18:28:36","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=4946"},"modified":"2024-08-10T14:28:39","modified_gmt":"2024-08-10T18:28:39","slug":"mattering-light","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=4946","title":{"rendered":"mattering light&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>From where I sit, I can see<br>high up in the crab apple tree<br>a small feather blowing in the breeze<br>as it quite actively<br>catches<br>the<br>light<br>and my eye<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I wonder to myself about its<br>travels<br>and how it has come to<br>light<br>just here<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>up through the branches,<br>the beautiful sky above<br>both breaking bits of sun<br>and<br>plenty of cloud<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>This week we steal away<br>a little morning<br>for a lunch and birthday celebration<br>with my lovely Mother-in-law<br>whose remarkable milestone was turning<br>ninety-eight!<br>We don\u2019t get to spend as much time<br>as we\u2019d like, as my husband has to get to work<br>but we do spend as much time,<br>as we can<br>and enjoy each other\u2019s company<br>immensely<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>On the way home, I wonder out loud<br>if perhaps we should have done more<br>to which my husband says, the big over-production<br>grand celebration planning kind of thing\u2026\u00a0<br>we\u2019re not good at that<br>True, I say,\u00a0 <br>then half joking ask him<br>What are we good at\u2026 ?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>a rhetorical sort of question<br>but quite quickly, I tell him<br>good intentions, that\u2019s what we\u2019re good at<br>good<br>intentions<br>and he agrees<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>now, this I will tell you,<br>is not nothing<br>as you may have been told<br>I kind of believe that we are led to<br>beat ourselves up so very much<br>by trying<br>sometimes desperately,<br>to always be more<br>to keep up, improve, compete<br>prove our love, prove our love, prove<br>our<br>love<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>yet sometimes, small simple acts<br>kindness, caring, witnessing<br>can come to mean<br>so very much<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>and this matters<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>this week too, I come to learn that<br>my cousin David has died<br>and the heartbreak I feel for his sister<br>my cousin Robin, and my beloved Aunt Gayle<br>sits like a weight on my chest<br>a really big hearted man, was David<br>who had his fair share of struggles<br>yet, never-the-less<br>was a true light in this world<br>he was kindness, he was caring<br>and he did in this life<br>what he could<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>good intentions my friends,<br>do<br>catch the light<br><br>do sit in the heart<br>equally<br><br>do come good, and<br>true<br><br>and do indeed,<br>even in our own little ways<br>put love in the world<br><br>and we can all benefit greatly<br>from knowing<br>that \u2665<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>I love you David, you mattered<\/em><br><em>to me <\/em>  -^- <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>From where I sit, I can seehigh up in the crab apple treea small feather blowing in the breezeas it quite activelycatchesthelightand my eye I wonder to myself about itstravelsand how it has come tolightjust here up through the branches,the&hellip; 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