This past week I began to write out
dismal
kinds of thoughts
I\u2019d been hit quite hard by vertigo
the dizziest sort of feeling
like liquid clouds had filled my ears
and I had stumbled upon rolling seas
wondering if maybe I had forgotten my allergy pill
but knowing
I had not<\/p>\n\n\n\n
the week carried me into heavy territory
anxiety high
felt like I was trembling on the inside
ant farm gone wild
trying to outrun constant chatter
jaw tight
the kind of hopelessness
of thought<\/p>\n\n\n\n
almost always accompanied by
why\u2026 must I go through this
again<\/p>\n\n\n\n
it can be a February sort of feeling
although certainly not just confined
to
winter months
it can be a dastardly tiresome thing<\/p>\n\n\n\n
the small child in me, gets quieter knowing full well, this will not be a long for the most part, I do keep this uneasy battle this week I did seek wise council from I read a couple of lovely books\u00a0 I also spent a great deal of time as they I kept my heart out of the news whether you yourself are out celebrating life I do hope and gathering sunshine… where you can \u2665\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" This past week I began to write outdismalkinds of thoughtsI\u2019d been hit quite hard by vertigothe dizziest sort of feelinglike liquid clouds had filled my earsand I had stumbled upon rolling seaswondering if maybe I had forgotten my allergy pillbut…
withdrawing further into my very own
corner
whilst flipping my heart light sign
to
Temporarily
Out of Office<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
layover
as who, I ask you
has time for such dismal things
as this?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
to myself
other than a brief flare sent out
to my love
strictly\u2026\u00a0 for his own protection
it falls,
like a whimper,
notification that I
am not
in my happy place<\/p>\n\n\n\n
several toads
out and about in the greenhouse
where I work
as well one small ladybug who stayed
on the back of my shoulder for most of one morning
to
comfort<\/p>\n\n\n\n
one A Gentle Plea for Chaos: Reflections from an English Garden
by Mirabel Osler<\/em>
which of course proved the perfect balm for \u00a0
February
always feels the best time to read about gardens
and
This Here Flesh: Spirituality, Liberation, and the Stories That Make Us
by Cole Arthur Riley<\/em>
which was astonishingly beautiful in words and
thoughts and did indeed leave a piece of it
with me
and with so much gratitude for having found
this really important voice<\/p>\n\n\n\n
sending loving thoughts to two of my dearest friends
as well as, at work
to a family whose granddaughter
and daughter were in a terrible accident
for love and kindness to surround
each of them<\/p>\n\n\n\n
heal<\/p>\n\n\n\n
solving a couple of jigsaw puzzles, and watched
my country\u2019s Prime Minister joyously congratulate
our athletes
at the Olympics<\/p>\n\n\n\n
or harbouring in a darkened corner
in a
rather comfy chair<\/p>\n\n\n\n
you are well<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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