too many words in my head today
\nand too little time
\nto sort them through<\/p>\n
they flash and swirl
\nracing around bumping into walls
\nand threatening to burst
\nout my ears<\/p>\n
then crashing down
\nin heaps
\nlike discarded clothes
\nin a laundry basket
\ntangled
\nand
\ntwisted<\/p>\n
thoughts of things I need to do
\nand things I need to remember
\nand things
\nI
\nneed to
\nbe<\/p>\n
words and phrases
\nswimming and flailing
\ncrashing in waves
\non the edges
\nof me<\/p>\n
pictures and colours
\nsnapshots of lives past
\nthe ashen ailing, yet still very much
\nendearing face
\nof the late Merle Haggard
\ntired eyes, nearly colourless skin
\nrelinquishing …
\nreminding me so clearly
\nof my own Dad’s
\nsurrendering
\nof a life<\/p>\n
reeling
\ncircling
\nin a constant endless loop
\nthe need to push it all in
\nand bolt the door
\nas my brain has
\nother matters to sort<\/p>\n
an afternoon
\nof papers and numbers
\nto be gathered and sent
\ngranted, with my very favourite man
\nbut one who has the ability
\nto absolutely
\ndrive
\nme
\ncrazy
\nwhen it comes to paperwork
\nand
\norganized
\nreceipts<\/p>\n
my head throbs
\nmy jaw is tight
\nExasperation
\nclosing my eyes
\na deep inhale
\nas I am ready
\nto blow<\/p>\n
breathe in
\npeace<\/p>\n
enter
\ngratitude<\/p>\n
gratitude
\nfor my day
\noff
\nfor my hero
\nour tax man<\/p>\n
for the company
\nof Mr. Grey, the squirrel
\nat my feeder<\/p>\n
for the vibrant colour of the cardinal
\namong the beautiful blues
\nof the star like scilia
\nholding strong, despite the sprinkling of snows
\nit has had to endure
\ngathering in great numbers
\non the lawn<\/p>\n
for the luminous silvery moon
\nthat peeked in my bedroom window
\nlast night, just as I lay down
\nand scattered my pillow
\nwith glistening ribbons
\nof light<\/p>\n
and ushered me to a
\ndelicious
\ncomforting
\ndeep sleep
\nwith a
\nsmile<\/p>\n
holding this thought
\njust here
\nis enough
\nto bring me grace<\/p>\n
to gather me up
\nto cradle me in a soft warm embrace
\nand to bring me gently
\nback to myself
\nempty
\nand yet once again
\never so
\nwonderfully
\nfull \u2665<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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