to you, with my apologies, if we have just met …
\n~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~<\/p>\n
\nso, as you may have noticed
\nI am just not good at small talk
\nand most times
\nsocial anxiety threatens to eat me
\nalive<\/p>\n
my mind racing
\nfaces to recognize
\nthings to say
\ntoo many words
\nand
\nnot
\nenough<\/p>\n
words<\/p>\n
rarely (as my husband can attest)
\ndo I not try to convince him
\nto just go without me
\nit would be
\nso much
\neasier …
\nI am sure I drive him crazy
\nbut somehow I talked him into
\nloving me
\nand this is just very much
\na part
\nof who I am<\/p>\n
I am sure for many of us
\nthere are times
\nwhen we struggle
\nwith finding
\nthe right words
\n(maybe, we have recognized each other here)<\/p>\n
but if it is to honour
\na friend
\nto comfort
\na friend
\nto support
\na friend
\nto be
\na friend<\/p>\n
I step into
\nmy brave -ish self
\nquell my fears
\ntry hard to leave
\nmy noisy head
\nand instead go into
\nmy
\nheart
\nto breathe in
\npeace
\nand gratitude<\/p>\n
to being just myself
\nas this is all
\nI have
\nto offer<\/p>\n
probably, \u00a0I am not too
\nchatty
\nI feel awkward
\ntry not to sound dumb
\nthink of the ‘right’ thing to say …<\/p>\n
thoughts start to devour<\/p>\n
but when I see you
\nI recognize you<\/p>\n
my friend<\/p>\n
and my smile is genuine
\nmy heart is real
\nand open<\/p>\n
and a hug is in fact
\nthe greatest
\nrecognition
\nof friendship<\/p>\n
a touch
\nhonest
\nand anchoring
\nit is care
\nit is comfort
\nand
\nit is Love<\/p>\n
when I say
\nit is nice to see you
\nit really is
\nNice
\nto see
\nYou<\/p>\n
maybe we haven’t even spoken
\nmaybe
\nwe
\nhave just smiled
\nmaybe our eyes
\nhave just met
\nin fond
\nrecognition<\/p>\n
still
\nI am honoured
\nby your friendship<\/p>\n
certain, I often appear
\nawkward
\nand unsure
\nin seeing you
\nI feel
\nblessed<\/p>\n
centering myself
\nin gratitude
\nthis is where I choose
\nto stay<\/p>\n
in the blessings
\nof friendship<\/p>\n
in the graciousness
\nof life<\/p>\n
in the beauty
\nand generousness
\nof Love<\/p>\n
embracing also
\nthe comfort
\nof being
\nmyself<\/p>\n
sometimes,
\nsmallish in words
\nalways
\nbiggish in
\nheart \u00a0\u2665<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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