{"id":761,"date":"2016-08-14T17:20:32","date_gmt":"2016-08-14T21:20:32","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=761"},"modified":"2016-08-14T17:20:32","modified_gmt":"2016-08-14T21:20:32","slug":"assembling-pieces-of-wood","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=761","title":{"rendered":"assembling pieces of wood"},"content":{"rendered":"

yesterday,
\nfull to overflowing
\nfilled to the brim
\n<\/span><\/span>with gratitude
\n<\/span><\/span>bubbles on every
\n<\/span>surface
\n<\/span><\/span>yet I could feel the waves
\n<\/span><\/span>starting to
\n<\/span>roll
\n<\/span>taking with them
\n<\/span>tiny grains
\n<\/span>of
\n<\/span>sand
\ntiny\u00a0pieces
\nfrom my
\nskin<\/span><\/p>\n

today,<\/span>
\nI am burdened
\n<\/span><\/span>with unconscious
\n<\/span><\/span>worry
\n<\/span><\/span>today,
\nI have fully wrapped myself
\n<\/span><\/span>in a large blanket of poisonous
\nquills
\n<\/span><\/span>some dangerously sticking out
\n<\/span><\/span>some viciously
\n<\/span><\/span>poking
\n<\/span><\/span>in
\n<\/span>today,
\n<\/span>I am caustic misery
\n<\/span><\/span>my teeth are set
\nand I can feel
\nan actual frown
\n<\/span>pasted harshly on my face
\n<\/span><\/span>and I am fighting
\n<\/span>myself
\n<\/span>to keep the corners
\n<\/span><\/span>up
\n<\/span>I can feel my prickles
\n<\/span><\/span>my sharp edges
\nand I
\n<\/span><\/span>am ready
\nto strike!<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

a very real need
\nto get out of my head
\nagitates me
\nto leave this monkey chatter
\nand to instead
\nfind a comfortable spot
\nto rest
\nto gather myself in
\nto a sheltering
\nof my heart
\nand so …
\nI crawl on my own
\nto my little raft
\nand gently
\nset myself
\nafloat
\npast frog
\nunmoved
\nhe watches me go
\nI close my eyes to sky
\nI feel the rhythms of my breath
\nsway with the soothing
\nmotion
\nof the water
\nexhale…
\nslowly a softening
\na surrender
\na kiss to my forehead
\nan opening
\na letting go
\nof resistance
\nto not fight
\nthis…
\nto just go gently
\nto just
\nbeing
\ngentle<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

all too soon
\nI have crashed
\nupon the shore
\nand tumbled
\noff
\nface
\nfull
\nof\u00a0sand<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

again
\nI crawl,
\nback
\nto breath.. <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

slowly
\ngathering my pieces
\n<\/span><\/span>I’ll set my little raft
\nto right
\npull myself aboard
\nonce again
\nknowing it is necessary
\nto push off
\nfrom
\nhere
\nand to drift…<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

while I wait\u00a0<\/span><\/span>for the sun \u2665
\n<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

(oh, and Sam Smith, I’m taking you with me ..)<\/span><\/span><\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

yesterday, full to overflowing filled to the brim with gratitude bubbles on every surface yet I could feel the waves starting to roll taking with them tiny grains of sand tiny\u00a0pieces from my skin today, I am burdened with unconscious…
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