{"id":798,"date":"2016-08-26T15:42:40","date_gmt":"2016-08-26T19:42:40","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=798"},"modified":"2016-08-26T15:42:40","modified_gmt":"2016-08-26T19:42:40","slug":"to-live-in-the-questions","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=798","title":{"rendered":"to live in the questions &#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>there is a quote from Rainer Maria Rilke that I love:<\/p>\n<p><strong><em>&#8220;Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. \u00a0Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. \u00a0Live the questions now. \u00a0Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.&#8221;<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n<p>to live the questions&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>I would say, and my husband would definitely<br \/>\nconfirm<br \/>\nthat I live in the questions<br \/>\nI live in the knowledge that much of life<br \/>\nis uncertain<br \/>\nalthough I am quiet<br \/>\nit has always been my nature<br \/>\nto question authority<br \/>\nI question the status quo<br \/>\nI question traditions and perceived limitations<br \/>\nI am not to be ruled by<br \/>\n&#8216;shoulds&#8217;<br \/>\nI don&#8217;t follow a crowd<br \/>\nor a trend<br \/>\nor a popular vote<br \/>\nthere is much to be unsure of<br \/>\nin life<br \/>\nand always<br \/>\nthere is much to learn<br \/>\nfrom each other<\/p>\n<p>sitting in my spot<br \/>\nin the sun<br \/>\nI am bothered by questions<br \/>\nwithout answers<br \/>\nfrustrated that someone I love<br \/>\ncannot see the true value<br \/>\nof who they<br \/>\nare<br \/>\nand saddened that the person<br \/>\nI would talk to<br \/>\nabout these questions in life<br \/>\nis not here<br \/>\nanymore&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>a wasp starts to circle my feet<br \/>\nand my legs<br \/>\nthen flies in my face<br \/>\nannoying me<br \/>\nwhen I look up<br \/>\nI notice the female cardinal<br \/>\nis sitting with me<br \/>\nnot making a sound, which is quite unusual<br \/>\nas she preens<br \/>\njust quietly<br \/>\nI watch her, as she appears to rest her head on a branch<br \/>\nand she is panting<br \/>\nI look to the bird bath to make sure there is water<br \/>\nthen out of the quiet<br \/>\na voice from the neighbour&#8217;s yard<br \/>\nof someone I can not see<br \/>\nsays, &#8220;Are you ok?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>and though I believe she<br \/>\nis talking to a child<br \/>\nI answer to myself and<br \/>\nto my cardinal<br \/>\n&#8216;yeah, I think so..&#8217;<br \/>\nand I smile<\/p>\n<p>I am just sitting with the questions<br \/>\nallowing<br \/>\nthe uncertains..<br \/>\nopen like sky<br \/>\nresting in Love<br \/>\nwatching the clouds<\/p>\n<p>go by \u2665<\/p>\n<h1 class=\"quoteText\"><\/h1>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>there is a quote from Rainer Maria Rilke that I love: &#8220;Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a&hellip; <br \/><a class=\"read-more-button\" href=\"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/?p=798\">Read more<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":799,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-798","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/798","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=798"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/798\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":801,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/798\/revisions\/801"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/799"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=798"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=798"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tamara.tedzplace.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=798"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}