This morning after a read of my book, I listen to a Ted talk by the inimitable Anne Lamott: 12 Truths I learned from life and writing. I love Ted talks, of all kinds, I could easily while away the hours if they would mostly kindly just offer me a permanent seat, a bottomless cup of tea and a good book for the ‘in-betweens’. Oh, and equally as important, probably a box of kleenex.
Some days I could just sit and cry
not from sadness
(from hormones most certainly)
but more from
kindness, from intelligence
from
beauty
things I see, things I hear
and listen to
and things –
I feel
kind hearts, and kind people
and genuine
souls
truth and
realness
art, music, words
and creative genius
amazement and
amusement
and
Love
maybe … hopefully,
some of these things, are reflected in me
recognized maybe or
awakened
and that is why I feel them so
I don’t know, really… but it certainly is something I have come to appreciate
In myself
I had a friend once tell me (among other things) that she “couldn’t handle my negative emotions in my writing”.
Most of what was ‘kindly offered’ made me question really the actual use of the word friend,
and how we choose, when we know
better
but not my emotions, or the sharing of myself
certainly no one expects to always be up, and I can’t imagine going through life not
feeling
there really is so much beauty to behold
and kind hearts are very real
and tears
and yes, even sadness
can really be a wonderful thing
and guarding one’s heart!?
I just don’t have the energy for that
so, I remain
open
to wonder, and to beauty
to realness
and
to truth
and to those kind hearts who do the same
I recognize you
and
I thank you
for
everything ♥