“Finding where exactly the outside world ends and I begin—is not so easy.” ~ Nora Bateson
There are a couple of writers whose writing I greatly admire
well of course, that’s ridiculous
there are many,
many, many, many
what I mean to say is there is a blog that I read regularly Transactions With Beauty
and posts from the great Jena Schwartz, that so often have me smiling,
tearing up and/or nodding my head in familiarity of things I think and feel.
So much so, that I make it a point to not read a new post of theirs on a day when I have words
running through the noisy corridors in my own head,
poking through little holes of light,
straining their boundaries
to get out and on to
the page
(as someone who doesn’t like crowds, one would wonder why I allow
so many to tromp around here at once, really)
As it is, I am a dedicated gatherer of wonder and fervent curator of
curiosity
as well as having a very grand fondness for quotes that
snatch up pieces of my heart
so,
I have a slight fear of unintentionally writing out someone else’s thoughts
or heaven forbid, someone else’s
words…
the unsettling-ness of this for me being..
would the sometimes fogginess (and constant over-crowding) of one’s brain, allow this to unknowingly happen?
but then I reason with myself,
wouldn’t you have to have a giant ego or be horribly naive to think
that You are of course the only one to have
a thought
(in my own wagging finger, who-do-you-think-you-are tone!)
isn’t there a great comfort in the connected-ness of
sharing similar feelings and thoughts to someone one admires
probably it makes us feel less
small
in the greater picture
of life
(and writing)
it is to me, always a wonderful feeling when someone says,
I feel that too
and
how lovely of you .. to put it into words
this is after all, I suppose
precisely how
we find each other
and sometimes,
how we find
ourselves
and just how wonderful is that?
So every day, I open my heart
to learning
to seeing
to listening
to feeling
(and maybe to giving myself a little credit)
because
all the world is in here somewhere… and I am just happy
in the
wandering
in the gathering
and too
the great comfort of
sifting
through
for pockets of gold ♥