Today, I am wrapping myself in love..
I wake up this morning worried about a friend who has been hurt at work,
and wearing the helplessness of
the wait
as well as concern for a friend who has been hurt
in other ways
this morning I am reading a book that continues to tear me apart,
and I can feel myself carrying the bruises
of others
that seem almost
unbearable,
things that I can relate to and things that I
know nothing about
and I have to take breaks in my reading
to
breathe
this week I watch a documentary on mental illness
the life altering cruelty of its
nature on gracious souls
as well as
the ripples that follow
also one on the discovery and effects of family connections
and
secrets
things of this nature .. I know
human stories interest me, but also they have the power
to
devastate me
in
tiny but weighted increments
and I know this
so today,
I am wrapping myself in love
I am breathing deeply
and I am
smiling
I am loving my husband
and my
family
I am actively sending love and good wishes to a friend
I am listening to love songs, and I am thinking about those I have loved
and those that I do
love greatly
and the richness of this in my life
and I am
singing
I watch a crow in the garden, gathering bits of dog hair
and leaves
time for feathering one’s nest
this proves to be enough of a draw
and I slip on my flip-flops and I step outside
the cardinal is calling, and perhaps
I hadn’t been listening
the blue jays are next to join the chorus, and most often
the loudest
on a branch above me a chickadee is fluffing his feathers
and squirrels thinking they are stealth
run the fence line
the sun is not really shining, but there is no denying how very lovely it is
to look upon things of another colour
other than white
and everywhere there are sprouts and soft mounds of moss
down at the bottom of the garden
I can see bits of purple
as my crocus begin to unfurl
and this to me is
joy
and hope
and also
love
simple, unassuming, seemingly delicate
but
strong
and I suppose this Is just how and possibly
why
I take this all in
as I do
care and concern for others
those I know, and those I don’t
yet
open to knowledge and understanding
and
questions… always questions..
human nature, inhumanity and human
kindness
so that even when my heart begins to break
as it does
I am still certain
that instead it will
expand
as I AM love
wrapped in love
surrounded by love
blessed by love
I
am
Love
simple, unassuming, seemingly delicate
but
strong ♥
“for there is nothing heavier than compassion. Not even one’s own pain weighs so heavy as the pain one feels with someone, for someone, a pain intensified by the imagination and prolonged by a hundred echoes.” ~ Milan Kundera