I am not an expert swimmer
more to truth
I am not an expert .. anything
perhaps I am becoming expert
at madly treading water
when waves come rolling in
deep and heavy
nerves feel frayed
jaw tense
heart aches …
just a little
I long for the safety
of a hidden shore
arms to hold me
yet never to be found
I am gasping
I am flailing
I am heavy
I .. wallow
until I can feel myself sinking
slowly
now, rapidly
I tread madly
keeping my head
above water
turning my face to the sky
offering the rawness of my heart
it’s time
to float ..~ tamara willems
