My first thought this morning is just how cruel it can be
to be a woman
riding these ridiculous waves
like one who is learning to surf
barely mounting the board before harshly being
shoved under water again
often feeling like you have snagged your foot
and might just as well
stay under
find a cave
when my husband joins me for coffee I tell him
today I’m going to write about how very sore my __________ are
really isn’t it best, if something is sore.. that everyone should know
with a smirk in my direction,
barely looking up from his paper
I dare you, he says
already I can feel myself softening…
as my day goes on, I suppose something in my book
has me thinking about love
or what it is, we think
is
love
early misguided relationships ensnared like a bad habit
so very long ago, sometimes cringe worthy
now without any bitterness, hardly to be recognized
a brief whirlwind of a romance with someone in pure teenage fashion
I thought I’d just never live without, he lived in another town
and now I have some trouble remembering
his name
also the one wistfully known as, ‘the one that got away’… (of my own doing, of course)
then too, the first time I thought it was real
well and truly seduced by the killer smile of a smooth talker
who in all manner of a classic romance
stole me away,
then rather quickly (to no surprise) broke my heart
who also, I guess one could say
helped it mend by continued connection
much more wisely, warming to a
friendship
that still holds
and then to this
to find the magical comfort of a love
so grand as this one, and yet
so very
simple
with someone I had always known and just not
known
it is this I cherish every day
still there is a smile and gratitude in, from time to time
thinking of the steps along the way
to knowing love
to recognizing love
and to finding oneself in the comfort
of love
my husband and I go out for a bit of thrift shopping
where he knows how much I like to poke through boxes of
old Christmas ornaments
before long I have found a couple of treasures that
so easily make my heart
shine
on the way home filled with joy for my new finds
and also, even a few hours
together
and the great blessings.. of this
I tell him
if only they had known
how easily I could have been got
for just 25 cents ♥