(also the working title, dullish colours and small dilemmas)
Last night I listen to a woman who has made it her business
helping people and businesses deal with
failure
she is knowledgeable, intelligent and
well-spoken
I find it quite interesting and marvel at anyone who
can so easily and fluidly answer any questions put to them
in a thoughtful and engaging
manner
this morning my husband proposes a brisk walk
a stretch out and a bit of fresh air
as we walk he talks to me about his work
to which he is passionate and dedicated
and has been for almost thirty years
two things I take away from this, one just how very proud
I am of my husband, as I am
always
and also I guess, a little longing
in how I wish I had something work wise to feel
passionate
about
for the portion of our time that we
give away
to be somehow .. fulfilling
I don’t have that, and it feels at times so very
contradictory to me (of me)
maybe it’s the comfort level of feeling sort of
in one’s place
of doing well, contributing .. something of value
to the world
because you are in it, as in this
This is what I do
But I don’t have that,
what I do is family, what I do is read books, listen to things
and learn things
what I do is feed the birds, watch the flowers
and notice beautiful things
what I do is friendship, connection
kindness, gratitude and
Love
what I do is marvel at tiny paw prints in the snow,
languish a little
at the dullness of January
think much
about life
and then sometimes… I write ♥