the shadow of your smile appeared today,
i think someone spoke your name
or maybe it was that song i heard
and i wondered if you knew
that sometimes,
i think of you
we knew each other once
or well,
we thought we did
I thought you hung the moon,
and you thought that i,
well ….
sometimes the romantic in me wonders
if i was ever worthy of love songs
or great declarations of the one that got away
are there things that make you think of me
could i have ever been that
memorable,
could i have ever
held your heart ..
there was that time you kept my shirt
because, you said, it smelled like me
and i knew that i would fall for you
were we once friends
or were we lovers
or have we merely passed each other
on the street
a face in the window
a smile
a brief exchange
a knowing glance,
a moving away ..
and then that time once on a canal in London
when i was sure i saw you,
you looked so intensely at me
i thought that i would melt
but you were with someone
and i was already oceans away …
did we share something real
or did our eyes just meet
a brief bit of recognition
did i know you,
did we perhaps …
were we,
anyway …
there came a time
when i broke your heart
or you broke mine
and suddenly,
we were no longer
us
was i too foolish
too much,
too little,
were you perhaps, just too ..
you
could i have been a school girl crush
or maybe even a passing thought
that sort of seems to suspend time
even for just a moment
to unrequited love
to words not spoken
to what you were to me
in another time
or
what i was to you …
to a beautiful memory
that maybe,
never was …
to invoking that smile
to those all familiar footprints on my journey..
i guess it was just that song,
just a passing thought
of you
just a shadow, really
but still, i wondered
if you knew .. ♥