I startle myself awake
from a bad dream
heart pounding, restless
full of fear
as a result, when I do arise
I am not feeling
rested
instead I am tense
anxious
frayed
my jaw is tight
my thoughts race
and I am worried
about just what …
I am unsure
except the wretched flow
of hormones
my legs hurt
my feet are standing
much to rigged and firm
on the ground
tears are mobilizing
ready to storm the gates
I brace myself, tighter
I push against
short sharp breaths
without noticing I further grit my teeth
I am becoming
stone
tears begin to pool
and one starts to ease itself
ever so slowly and gently down my cheek
then pauses just there
until I have left my racing mind
to notice
and in this
I soften
just a little
whispers…
feel … this.
drawing in
I begin to empty
dropping away racing thoughts
easing tension in my body
breathing in deeply and fully
consciously allowing my feet
to gently
rest
on the ground
exhale …
allowing every muscle
to soften
and to just
be
I’ll need to repeat this
I know ..
allowing space
and ease
offering Love
and kindness
where I need it
because today
I need it
and so
gently I go
with kindness
with Love
even with tears if they come
and they’ll come
to opening myself
with ease of breath
and ease of mind
and yes,
to sunshine
my salve
and to blessing
myself
a kind of comfort
today
fitting too,
I think …
to a gentle stretching
to a kind of uncovering
and to opening
myself to the graciousness
of light
on this first day
of Spring ♥