news this morning
hits my husband first
and then to me
the sudden and completely unexpected death
of a friend
a wife
a mother
and we are left shocked
and saddened
sat in stunned
silence
I am suddenly
covered in goosebumps
hands are ice cold
and I am shaking
unable to process…
the mind races
the heart aches
a son without his mother
a husband without his
partner
a family,
without …
and friends,
and friends,
and
friends
it can’t …
I can’t …
doesn’t make sense
my stomach turns
and I feel sick
I can hear your voice
I can see your smile
that lights into a
lovely sarcastic grin
that laugh!
not a delicate flower
a straight-forward
sharp shooter
yet beautiful
in the very real sense
of herself
not inclined
to mush
but oh so kind
and caring
just the same
I have a fondness
for strong intelligent women
and as she knew – great nurses
and wicked sharp wit
and Nancy was indeed
all of these things
we shared a love of books
the transformation of children
husbands
and
home
life
how to possibly balance
the elation in my own home
this morning
with the absolute
devastation
in yours
it’s so hard to process
this news
it’s not right
it’s NOT RIGHT
IT’S
JUST
NOT
RIGHT!!!
how do we..
how can we..
how..
…
Hold on to each other
that’s all I know
hold hands
hold hearts
hold
together
and be gentle
I don’t know how we find comfort
I don’t
know
I just know
when it’s shaky ground
we’re on
when words don’t come
don’t seem …
enough
it’s good to
find a hand
to hold
and be held
and be kind
because
we really do
need
each other
we really do ..
and so I’m sending Love
wherever you need it
most
today,
with a heavy heart
I’m sending Love.
in loving kindness and peace, my friend ♥