My current reading and
might
read next
pile
where I have not spent nearly enough time
with the first book, Surrender
and it really is so very good
but also, where I am always looking forward
to the
next
one
and ways in which the two of these
first two in particular
might just happen to be
quite similar
wondering today, when it is exactly
that we
can stop apologizing for
the way we are
especially when it is
that we are quite accustomed to
the way we are
and for the most part, ok with it
when we have made ourselves a quite sensible
pact
(in order to quell persistent anxiety)
to not apologize
for being just
so
except I suppose when certain
expectations or social
‘norms’ arise
the kinds of pressures we put on ourselves
or
each other, as it were
myself, I am never one for ‘has to be’s’
must be done in such a way
rather enthusiastically balk
at anything containing the word
should
always been quite fond of the phrase
Says Who ?
yet still periodically, as is I suppose with
human nature
that little tiny stirring up
on the inside
the annoying pesky mosquito
that starts one to
worry,
just… a bit
where foolishly we then will
sort of involuntarily
choose
to fight against
ourselves
knowing full well that this
will serve us
no good purpose, at all
possibly what I’m just trying to say here
is
if you were to see someone
who may look like
they
could really use a hug
and being that you, yourself wouldn’t mind at all
a soggy shoulder or chest even (should you happen to be quite tall)
and that someone might just per chance,
happen to
look
exactly like
me
(calm cool on the outside, cute as a button 😉 –
though a complete disheveled mess on the inside,
and is her face broken out!? –
though she is far from being a teenager!!)
I can just tell you,
that I
would be ever so grateful
for your
kindness ♥