there is a quote from Rainer Maria Rilke that I love:

“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue.  Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything.  Live the questions now.  Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”

to live the questions…

I would say, and my husband would definitely
confirm
that I live in the questions
I live in the knowledge that much of life
is uncertain
although I am quiet
it has always been my nature
to question authority
I question the status quo
I question traditions and perceived limitations
I am not to be ruled by
‘shoulds’
I don’t follow a crowd
or a trend
or a popular vote
there is much to be unsure of
in life
and always
there is much to learn
from each other

sitting in my spot
in the sun
I am bothered by questions
without answers
frustrated that someone I love
cannot see the true value
of who they
are
and saddened that the person
I would talk to
about these questions in life
is not here
anymore…

a wasp starts to circle my feet
and my legs
then flies in my face
annoying me
when I look up
I notice the female cardinal
is sitting with me
not making a sound, which is quite unusual
as she preens
just quietly
I watch her, as she appears to rest her head on a branch
and she is panting
I look to the bird bath to make sure there is water
then out of the quiet
a voice from the neighbour’s yard
of someone I can not see
says, “Are you ok?”

and though I believe she
is talking to a child
I answer to myself and
to my cardinal
‘yeah, I think so..’
and I smile

I am just sitting with the questions
allowing
the uncertains..
open like sky
resting in Love
watching the clouds

go by ♥