a·maz·ing
əˈmāziNG/
adjective
– causing great surprise or wonder; astonishing.
informal
– startlingly impressive.
I work at a job that I am quite certain I am not entirely suited for, it is hard, physical and most unlike anything I have done in a ‘professional’ capacity. But the strains of life, necessitated a paycheque and this is where I have landed. I struggled for a time to find my joy here, (and some days I still do)…
at the end of long days, with my achingly tired body, I wonder, Can this be where I was meant to be?
As usual, out of my agitated head, and instead resting in my heart, I find it quite easy to gather in gratitude for the people I work with, for kindness and always for the quiet beauty of nature.
Yesterday, I am stood for a moment watching as a young woman whom I work with drives the tractor, which carries a heavy load.
I watch in silent awe.
I am wholly and completely amazed at just how adept she is, at easing the rather large rumbling tractor gently closer, then picking up a very large loaded cart, carefully backing up, around and among various obstacles and debris then arriving at the destination, masterfully and skillfully and ever so gently placing this very large load exactly in the narrow opening of the barn, unscathed, as my friend and I proceed forward to move the load further to it’s resting place. This task is repeated a few times, and each time I stand in awe,
watching,
marveling ..
the absolute beauty of this moment, has me very close to tears, which I am sure sounds rather ridiculous given the scene I have just described. However, this is me,
I watch in awe,
I profoundly feel this beauty,
and I think to myself, ‘I wonder, does she know just how Amazing she is?’
This young woman is roughly the age of my oldest son, so maybe it’s a maternal thing, she is also lovely and kind in spirit and in heart,
and so to me, I guess, it is all of this,
that stops me here
gather this in …
I have a friend who’s beauty shines in the pictures that she takes, not only in her skills of photography, but in the things that she captures, that to me offer the glimmering lights of her heart.
I have a friend who honours his wife and family in the way that he very proudly cherishes the gifts that surround him, and continue to build him, grand in stature.
I have a friend, who’s absolute love and commitment to her partner are in her every word, every action, and so very wonderfully, in her every smile.
I have a friend who’s found the wonder in life (again) and now honourably and fantastically, keeps it very much alive in the love he has for his son.
I have a friend, who has always been so incredibly herself, who’s heart was never hidden, and who’s beautiful light continues to shine through a face, surrounded by delicate strawberry curls, that somehow ages more beautifully than even seems possible.
I have a friend, who almost instantly I found great comfort in, in recognizing her heart as genuinely connected to my own, and in her presence, I am always instantly at ease.
I have a friend, who …
I have a friend …
I have
a friend
in whom, I can recognize
Love
and the absolute profoundness and beauty
of this.
this is what stops me
in a moment
gathers in my heart
and brings me always
close to tears
I live in this,
I love
in this
I am
this
this
is my heart
not something I keep hidden inside
but something
I walk around in
I am fully this
and really, all I wanted to say to you
my friend, from my heart –
is,
‘do you know how Amazing you are?’
please, then
if you would
stop,
just this minute and feel this
‘I think
You
are
Simply
Amazing!’
just as you are,
right here
in this moment
I just really wanted to tell you that ♥