yesterday,
full to overflowing
filled to the brim
with gratitude
bubbles on every
surface
yet I could feel the waves
starting to
roll
taking with them
tiny grains
of
sand
tiny pieces
from my
skin
today,
I am burdened
with unconscious
worry
today,
I have fully wrapped myself
in a large blanket of poisonous
quills
some dangerously sticking out
some viciously
poking
in
today,
I am caustic misery
my teeth are set
and I can feel
an actual frown
pasted harshly on my face
and I am fighting
myself
to keep the corners
up
I can feel my prickles
my sharp edges
and I
am ready
to strike!
a very real need
to get out of my head
agitates me
to leave this monkey chatter
and to instead
find a comfortable spot
to rest
to gather myself in
to a sheltering
of my heart
and so …
I crawl on my own
to my little raft
and gently
set myself
afloat
past frog
unmoved
he watches me go
I close my eyes to sky
I feel the rhythms of my breath
sway with the soothing
motion
of the water
exhale…
slowly a softening
a surrender
a kiss to my forehead
an opening
a letting go
of resistance
to not fight
this…
to just go gently
to just
being
gentle
all too soon
I have crashed
upon the shore
and tumbled
off
face
full
of sand
again
I crawl,
back
to breath..
slowly
gathering my pieces
I’ll set my little raft
to right
pull myself aboard
once again
knowing it is necessary
to push off
from
here
and to drift…
while I wait for the sun ♥
(oh, and Sam Smith, I’m taking you with me ..)